Thursday, March 09, 2006

Pergi starts from the letter P

I made the cards to communicate with my mum better. Or rather I made the kids do it for me.



The kids cutting up the alphabet posters at the ICU's corridor


I grouped the cards into five because I thought showing all the 26 alphabets can be a bit too much on my mum. When I actually tried it on her, it was still quite difficult. I am not sure whether she is still okay with spelling. Maybe trying to digest all the letters into a word is quite complicated. Sigh..I don't know. Perhaps it's too early for me to do this or I just need perseverance. Or this is only suitable for younger people with better eyesight. But all in all I didn't want to intimidate her. So I said to her, whenever you are ready Ibu.

So there I was trying to understand what she is saying by reading her lips again. I understand certain things after sometime like she wants water and now she knows where the bottle is she kept looking at it and mouthing, nak (want).

Later in the night she struggled to say something that she refused to budge. She mouthed something that begins with the letter "P". I tried hard to decipher it. Sometimes out of frustration I ignored it and change the topic, but like I said she refused to budge. Then I started again trying to guess

Per? Nod
Perigi? Shake
Pizza? shake
Errr pergi?

Then she looked like she was going to cry. And my heart dropped. Could it be that she said pergi? Could it? Pergi means go. Go away! Was she asking me to go away?

Then she tried again. Somehow half an hour later I said another word.

Peluk? Nods vigorously and big big smile

Oh my God she wanted to hug me. Peluk means hug.

I laughed and laughed till I cried and I hugged her so tight, I hope I didn't crush the wires that wraps her.

I know she wanted to hug back but she can't lift her hands. But it's okay, I am going to hug her lots. To compensate for the lost years. Sigh.

You see Pergi and Peluk, both starts from the letter "p".

13 comments:

Jo Kontan said...

Subhaanallah..

Anonymous said...

All this while i've been reading your mum's progress and been offering her doa from far..but today I feel like typing. Very touching..tears welled up my eyes. She will overcome this misery with you beside her.

Anonymous said...

hansac your comment as simple as it is made me feel like crying

tj and easylady - thank you. and let's hope for the best

Jill Yusoff said...

your mom must be very lonely lying there all day. i wish i could hug her too and you.

Khairil said...

salams,
my doa to your mother & family....
never underestimate the power of prayers....never stop believing in miracles....HE works in mysterious ways.

Lollies said...

nekbat - she must be kan? cannot talk to anyone.

torqxic - hi. yes. prayers and redha juga

Kunci said...

Berair lak mata saya mkn nasik lemak pagi ni...

Semoga dilindungi Allah selalu.

Anonymous said...

I'm so happy 4 u, seeing you around is one of the best medicine that she can get. I pray our daughters will do the same in our time of need. Take care *shidah*

anne said...

alhamdullilah lollies, i havent been to your blog for a few days and missed the big news. patience my friend....let's pray for better days. your touch means a lot to her than a thousand words can tell.

Anonymous said...

kunci - janganlah macam tu. tersedak kang

shida - actually kan. betul cakap you

anne - it also means alot to me. I should have touched her more before..

...$weE+ 666... said...

dah nangis dah pun baca entry ni. rasa mcm saya pun nak peluk mak awak, lollies...

saya mohon dgn sangat agar kesihatan mak awak akan pulih seperti dulu... smoga saja! amin...

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