Ihsan

Alhamdulillah by the grace of Allah and his tawfiq and hidayah, Allah has allowed us to go to umrah his year. We got back safely last Friday Alhamdulillah.

When we came back from one of the solat jamaah in Haram, Haziq exclaimed, you know standing in the jamaah today when we raised our hands for takbiratul ihram and stood straight in a line, I felt that we were ready for war. In unity all of us. i felt so charged up.

I don't know whether this is the after effect of Lord of The Ring battle, or that we have been reading about the sahabah throughout our journey or the overwhelming feeling of being in the haram itself.

Indeed Haziq, to go to the masjid for you is already a jihad, to stand there is another jihad and the solah on its own is a battle of khushoo'.

In hadith Jibrael narrated by Umar radialllahu anhu,

in the conversation between Jibrael and Prophet sallallahu alaihi wasalam, Jibrael asked the Prophet,

“Inform me about Ihsan.” He (the Messenger of Allah) answered, ” It is that you should serve Allah as though you could see Him, for though you cannot see Him yet He sees you.”

Have you, when you stand before your Lord in your prayers, feel that? That you are really standing before Him and that He is watching your every move. That He is in front of you inspecting you?

Unlike the commander of war who would inspect his lines of men, when Allah looks, He can see your heart and all the secrets you hide. He knows who you are standing for and who you fear. He knows whether your heart is saying what you make apparent. He knows your yearns and He knows your cries.

And whether you keep your talk secret or disclose it, verily, He is the All-Knower of what is in the breasts (of men). (Al Mulk 67: 13)

And that He doesn't stop watching you after that.

He knows when you smile but it is hate that you feel in the heart. He knows your strive that you are fighting to follow His command. He can really see in your heart whether you are submitting to Him whole heartedly.

Your heart is exposed to Him. There is nothing, just nothing you can conceal! We are so weak Ya Rabb. Open to us Your Mervy Ya Rabb.

Lâ ilâha illa Anta Subhanaka. Truly, I have been of the wrong-doers." (Al Anbiya 21: 87)

Our Lord! We have wronged ourselves. If You forgive us not, and bestow not upon us Your Mercy, we shall certainly be of the losers.” (Al AaRaf 7: 23)