Word Sunday : Tame

To tame is to establish ties. said the fox to the little prince in "Le Petit Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery".

To tame is to make oneself be needed and to feel the need for that someone. Said the fox again.

The time you wasted on that someone makes that someone important. And when you have tamed someone, you have the responsibility over it.

JackJack is now two years and three months and he is still breast feeding. I have tamed him too well and now I find it hard to untamed him against the comfort of my bossom. Each morning he wakes up, he insist on no other milk except mine. I gave him the bottle and he has now progresses to 2ml of chocolate milk, after which he will come running for more of natural milk.

It is harder now that I am not working. Unlike his sister and brother, where I can do it in phase for I am not at home at least half of the day. Or I can put strange stuff on it so they would finally refuse.

But with little cutie jack O' Buddy, I am finding it real hard to pull it off. He wants it all the time. In fact he is on my lap at this moment milking away.

Now we all know, when there is a will, there is way.

Perhaps it is me. I have tamed myself to be needed by him. I have tamed myself to enjoy him close to me. The need to give. I enjoy the moment with him when i can sniff his hair. Stroke his cheek and forehead. Play with his lobes. Mum his fingers. One of the times that he would surrender to me without any struggle.

Am I selfish? Knowing that he might be my last child. *Sigh*

The joy of breastfeeding is tremendous and to finally take it away, for good, is tough to my heart. I may sound like I am complaining sometimes. Look lover he looks like he won't quit you know, I mumble. But to tell you the truth, I do look forward to his ritual of asking for milk before he goes to sleep. Hijavascript:void(0)
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I am the one who needs to untame myself. Untame myself from all the need to breastfeed him. In due time, I will.

There will come a time to let go.