Thursday, June 17, 2010

Saat Yang Di Tunggu

Insya Allah we are moving house tomorrow. We are already in the midst of moving and slowly sending small things there. The house is not 100% ready but liveable. Some maintenance issue.

So I will be off the internet for a bit. Will get back as soon as I get connected.

Meanwhile I paste here a nasyid with an excerpt of an excellent lecture that has never failed to touch my heart.

You can listen to the full lecture by Anw@r Awl@ki, entitled, "25 promises from Allah to the Believers", HERE. I dedicate this lecture to rotidua because she once quoted a hadith of the man who killed a hundred. Masya Allah. tabarakallah. May Allah bestow all of us with the understanding of His Ilm. The hadith was also mentioned in this lecture. Rotidua memang terer.

Meanwhile I part with this hadith, "I leave you in the care of Allah, Who nothing that in His care is lost." (Sahih Ibn majah. The traveler's invocation for the one he leaves behind)

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Difficult Question

The K@f@ classes that I have been helping to teach is closed for the long summer break. We will resume after Eid, Insya Allah. Bi Iznillah, if Allah gives me the qudrah and the knowledge I would like to continue teaching there.

I have enjoyed doing this bit of stint. Truly the students and the experience taught me alot. Praises all go to Allah.

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Left :My attempt to draw and write on the board,
Right : Some of the cute children. May they grow up to be righteous.

I learnt from the materials that i had to gather.
I learnt to teach the little knowledge I know and translated it for a 6 year old to comprehend.
I learnt from their reaction.
I learnt from their questions.
I learnt. I learnt. I learnt.

So far the most difficult question I heard was, "Aunty, my father still eat with his left hand. And I have told him what you said. How?" Or something to that effect.

How now brown cow?

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Ketawa Ketawa Ketawa

Like most typical house contract, we are told that in the case we do not wish to renew the housing agreement, we must send a notice of evacuation two months before the contract expire. Having failed that, it can be assumed that you would like to continue residing, and you also have to agree with whatever rental increment they want to impose. You can also breach this part but be ready to forfeit your one month rental deposit.

Anyway, in the view of this, we, who were from the start very adamant to want to move out from this house, has sent out notice of evacuation way before the two months date. We didn't have any potential house just yet back then, but our semangat berkobar-kobar mengatasi segalanya.

And when we have finally signed a new contract, we, the proud tenant of the house-to-be, dengan bangganya announced the date that we should be moving i.e. 20th may 2010. Which of course as you know, we later had to swallow our pride and asked the landlord to allow us to stay a little bit more.

Qadr Allah, my neighbour who lives above me, suddenly announced that they are moving to Saudi. And now they are gone. Poof! And my neighbour who lives behind me, hearing that we are planning to go, quickly find himself a house and will be moving tommorrow! Poof!

Suddenly, we found ourselves, yang semangat berkobar-kobar nak get out of this house and cannot stand living here anymore are still here. And no sign of moving this weekend either.


But remember this people. I am happy today tau.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Zachary is Six


Laaa dah besar dah baby ibu.

jackJack is not feeling well today. he has ulcer in his mouth and a bit of runny nose. And everybody fusses over him. Sungguh terasa sedih when he doesn't want to eat much. And he doesn't smile much. It's like the world has lost its colours. And yang paling over is Sya. She is such a big mama over Jack. Goodness!

And at other times, whenever Jack makes a cute face. The kids will fuss over him. Awwww.

Or when he makes baby voice. the kids will fuss over him. Awwww.

Overnya. Ibu dia relax aje.

And when he wants to get me, he would make a cat face and a squeaky baby's voice and iterate the latest dua that he had memorised.

Awwwww. Eh ibu dia relax aje. Tak cair pun.

So there you go, jack is still the baby of the house. And he still cries in kesedihan when I raise my voice to him. But lesser than last year.

He is still very thin.

He likes to hog the computer which makes me really angry. He can play the runescape game non stop. And his partner in crime is haziqwho is playing with him at the other end of the network. So I have to come up with activities to make him stay off that. Yes I can pull off the WIFI. And I have in several occasions. But in most occasions I had to do my thing there you go.

His memorisation is doing good when he wants to pay attention. Gertak aje sikit nangis. Bleargh. He has memorised up to Al Adiyat. Not that much but moving Insya Allah.

He seems to like maths too. But in relative to the rest of them he is not as dilligent. And I am finding myself with less and less time to pay attention to their work particularly jack's. Hoping to catch up during the school holidays.

He knows his cue that I want kisses and hugs from him and he obliges much. *muahs* Sampai bila gamaknya dia nak kena kiss and hug?

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Wednesday, June 02, 2010


As you all know kids asked the best of questions.

Haziq asked me this one day.

When we are being hisab in front of Allah on yaumul akhirah, what would happen if our mizan of the good deed and bad deed is balanced? Where would Allah put us? Hell or paradise?

Hmm tough one.

I'll give you my answer first (because I can) and you can assist me with yours ok? I am no scholar nor am I a student of knowledge. So if you have better answers I'd really love to hear them so we all can benefit towards remembering Allah. May we all have increase in taqwa.

Hmm truly in the end, for anyone to enter Paradise is solely upon Allah's mercy. Allah, Maliki Yaumiddin, the Owner/ Lord of the judgment day and on that day, all decision will belong to Him only. (Al Infitar 82: 19). We are in dire need of His mercy.

Secondly, my dear son.

You do know that for every good thought or intention that you have, that itself will be rewarded as one good deed. Just a thought of doing something good, and you will be rewarded. Indeed He is the Most Merciful.

And and and, if you actualise the thought and turn it into action, Subhanallah, you will be rewarded in the range of 10-700 and even more rewards. A good deed in the month of Ramadhan will be doubled. A good deed in Masjidil Haram will be rewarded as 100,000. A good deed in Madinah Munawarrah will be rewarded 1000. A good deed in Aqsa (May Allah give them victory. May Allah make the ones who died for His sake a martyr) is rewarded as 500. And there are special last ten nights in Ramadhan. Special first ten days of Dzulhijjah. You will be rewarded for your sincerity. And so on and so on. Allah knows best. Allah is the Most Merciful.

However, for every bad thought or bad intention that you have, there won't be any demerit for you. The pen on the left is still lifted. Even how bad the thought is. And if you did not actualise the deed, you will be rewarded for it. However, if you actually do the bad deed, you are given a few hours (is it 6?) to repent. Sincere repentance with remorse, Insya Allah will be forgiven. If one does not make repentance, the bad deed is written as one. Contrast this to the reward of good deed of 10-700 or more. Subhanallah! Allah is Most Merciful.

But as long as you are still alive, Subhanallah, you can always make repentance. And Allah the one who is Most Forgiving and the One who loves to forgive, will forgive you and erase the sins. And if one follows up the repentance with a good deed, more sins will be converted into good deeds. Subhanallah. Allah is Most merciful.

And Subhanllah, for every pain you are afflicted with, even if it is a prick of a thorn, is an expiation of sins if you are patient. (Oh Allah help me to be among of those who are patient).

Do not forget also that some small sins are erased during your wudhu', for every fard prayer, umrahs and hajj. And again there are times dua' is most maqbul. There is the one third of the last night to wake up (subhanallah this is hard) and seek forgiveness. And even when one dies, the dua' of their righteous child and also their good deeds that are carried out by people, are working for them. Subhanallah your nvestments are working for you when you are dead. One may find oneself in front of Allah full of sins and then watch His sins disappear before him. Then Allah tells him that when you are dead, your children prayed for your forgiveness. Subhanallah. Allah is the Most merciful.

So Haziq, since you love maths, let's just do some simple maths here. If one finds themselves with a balanced mizan on yaumul akhirah, don't you think that shows that he lived his life in dunya full of making more bad deeds than the good ones? Perhaps forgetting to seek forgiveness from Allah? Let us seek refuge in Allah from that.

So for you, my son (and me), let's just concentrate on doing good deeds, doing what Allah tells you to do, staying away from what He forbids, seeking His forgiveness for our wrong that we know and that we don't know. Fear Him. Have hope in Him.

Oh Allah we ask you for your Mercy.
We ask Allah to make us amongst those who reach Jannah.

To make the Heart Tender (Ar-Riqaq)
Bukhari :: Book 8 :: Volume 76 :: Hadith 498

Narrated Ibn 'Abbas:

The Prophet narrating about his Lord I'm and said, "Allah ordered (the appointed angels over you) that the good and the bad deeds be written, and He then showed (the way) how (to write). If somebody intends to do a good deed and he does not do it, then Allah will write for him a full good deed (in his account with Him); and if he intends to do a good deed and actually did it, then Allah will write for him (in his account) with Him (its reward equal) from ten to seven hundred times to many more times: and if somebody intended to do a bad deed and he does not do it, then Allah will write a full good deed (in his account) with Him, and if he intended to do it (a bad deed) and actually did it, then Allah will write one bad deed (in his account) .