Not a Sentimental Person

Dear Friend,

If you must know, I am not a sentimental person. I don't crave for long lost friend. The parable,Abscence makes the heart growth fonder, doesn't really apply to me. But not exactly Out of sight, out of mind either.

I do think of you every now and then.

I wonder whether you are super busy in your life, yeah I do think of that.

I wonder if you are getting along fine with your friends.

I wonder if they will see you for the wholesome person that you are.

I wonder if your family is well. Your kids and all.

I wonder alot.

But I don't easily type friendly chit-chat emails to ask how your kids are doing. Nor do I send sms every other day to ask about the game you had. Nor do I make calls often to gossip about current politics in my office.

Do you at times feel that it's always you who initiates?

If you don't ask, I never bother?

All your other friends email you all the time?

All your other friends give you a call now and then?

All your other friends know the happenings of your life?

And all I do is have a one and half hour lunch with you...practically every week.

I am just not a sentimental person.

But don't judge me bad. Please don't.

Don't jump into your pool of suspicions. Don't assume things, with me. Don't compare me with your friends. You know I am not the same with them.

I am just not a fast enough a person. I call at the very last minute, with no intention of malice. No other intention and no other reason other than not used to it. If that is a good enough reason for you. I am not used to doing that. And I apologise.

Sometimes I don't even know what to say...I am not that good a girlfriend. I am a lazy girlfriend.

But please, don't make me take away my sincerity.

Because sometimes...I easily do that.