Wednesday, July 05, 2006

How my Mother Becomes an Ibu

I was raised to call my mum, emak. It was not until I was perhaps five that I changed to call her Ibu.

I was beginning to read then. I remembered reading a Malay book about a family of a grasshopper. In the book, like any other Malay literature, it used "Ibu" as a term for mum. And it just struck me that the word "Ibu" is just beautiful. Endearing, short and perfect. Cultured yet loving.

The whole idea of the word "Ibu" somehow seemed so romantic to my naive mind than. The idea of changing it is thrilling in the first place. But to have call her Ibu,I think would have fulfilled part of a child's literature dream.

So that's what I did. I asked my mum whether I could call her Ibu instead. My mum, who was probably delighted that I could read, agreed astoundingly.

Now that I am an Ibu myself, I really am at awe with my mum. My children wanted to call me mummy when they were introduced to english books. Unlike my mum who happily agreed, I stood my ground. Ibu it is for you.

I told my mum this, when she was in the ICU. How much I admire her sacrifice of everything. Oh I so remembered her look then. She looked at me in the eyes. She didn't even attempt to say anything. She smiled a bit. Just looking at me babbling. And because we couldn't communicate we really looked at each other. Pity that it took my mum to lose her voice that only then her only daughter would really look into her loving eyes. I can only read love in them.

Lately it somehow struck me, when my kids were making such big fuss over me, calling me Ibu over and over again, I realised, I really won't be calling anyone "Ibu" forever. No one will answer me if I call. Not anymore.

Today is the mark of the 100th day that she left us.

Only prayers that I can offer her. Al Fateheh.

I am missing her just the same.

16 comments:

born-again drama queen said...

*warm hugs*
sedih...
you make me missing my mak like crazy..
until you lose your loved ones,no one can ever understand the pain, the feeling, the constant need of being with that person..kan?

really, really hope to see you in dubai..call me, i'm on roaming..

dlt said...

Al-fatihah to ur Ibu from me.
I can't imagine me without my mama satu hari nanti. :(

Lollies said...

nef - sedang memujuk suami tercinta.
apa aktiviti yang boleh dilakukan eh?

dlt - no no don't imagine. enjoy her as much as u can.

born-again drama queen said...
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bisutulibuta said...

Sekalung Alfatihah untuk ibu anda...

Jill Yusoff said...

Al Fatehah. I won't have anyone calling me Ibu. Agh.

UglyButAdorable said...

May Allah bless her soul and place her with the pious. amin...

Lollies said...

btb - thanks

jill - alaa jill.. Insya Allah nanti. Nak huuuggggg

uglybutt - Insya Allah

shahrul azwad said...

Your mother is lucky to have a daughter like you :)

anis said...

you're one heck of a strong lady, you know that mum. may Allah bless your mother's soul :)

Lollies said...

sharul - i hope so too

anis - wei you calling me mum ka? ha ha ha

anis said...

yee..aah. i'm afraid if i call you aunty, i might sound inconsiderately sarcastic nyahaha :D

simah said...

Al fatihah to ur mom..*hugs* to u..

easylady said...

Alfatihah untuk ibu Lollies. semoga Allah menccucuri rahmat ke atasnya.

Lollies said...

thank you thank you

aft3rglow said...

just heard of the sad news. my condolonces to you. i may have mispelt that.
may she be within Allah's Grace and Mercy. Ameen.