LOLLIES ANGER

As if the last entry was not enough, now you would have to bear more of Lollies' anger. Unfortunately, it is about the bitch next door again.

The other day, she charged into my home like a typical pig that she is. She banged my door furiously as though someone is dying desperate to give birth to a humungus child. Except, it was not anything as noble as that. Not with her!

The thing us, she thought no one was at my house that day. She thought my helper was alone with my children. My car was not there. Neither was my lover's. And banged as she might, she did.

She didn't know that my parents were there, though. My dad parked his car elsewhere.

My mum opened the door. Surprised she was.

Lu mau apa ketuk-ketuk rumah orang macam ni?

Eh! Wa mau cakap sama itu olang gaji.

Dia kerja. Lu pi balik!!.

My dad who was upstairs heard the commotion and went down.

Apa lu mau?!!

Errrr...tak ada saya mau cakap sama itu olang gaji ahhh..dia sudah silam itu pokok ahhh kasik basak sama saya punya cupboard lorrrr..nanti losak woo. Saya bukan malah keleta saya basah..tapi itu cupboard kayu losak wo.

Semalam lu sudah marah sama dia, jerit-jerit, semua orang tengok sekarang lu datang sini mau marah lagi?

Errr saya talak malah. Saya cakap saja.

Cakap!! Ini macam datang cakap ka? Kalau lu mau cakap, lu tunggu anak gua balik, lu cakap sama dia. Apa pasal lu tak tunggu dia balik. Lu mau marah sama itu orang gaji ya? Lu ingat tak ada orang sini ya? Lu tak boleh masuk sini. Lain kali picit loceng. Sekarang lu keluar!

She left. Apparently not happy.

Unfortunately, my helper was never left alone each time she is doing work outside. Why, just yesterday she was minding her business at the back of my house, she got a stare from the Bitch!

This morning, while washing the car, another stare!

What is her problem???? Not enough fucking from her ConstLuction expert husband or what?? She is that kind of people who feels the need to be in power but you see, she has none. She only has her kids that she can boss with and her helper that she can practice dictatorship on. She has little respect for people. Knowing that my helper is a helpless being, afraid and is afterall, a helper..she took advantage. She is trying to play mental with her.

And I don't like that! I don't like her doing that to my helper at any time.

She can't intimidate me, though. I know she tried, first with her renovation and then it was her plant that she wanted to plant on a shared compound..and many more, but I said no! I also mouthed FUCK YOU to myself.

Now she thinks she has a new toy to play with. My helper!!!!

I so feel like going to her house and give her a piece of my mind, really. But I don't want her to be my teacher. I am not going to reciprocate her and become a pig too. One pig in the neighbourhood is enough, thank you.

My helper looks sad today. Her eyes are all puffy. I don't even have any word of kindness with her. I am not good at handling emotions. I am just not that kind of person. Good soothing words do not come from me. I work better when I'm in rage. My system responds well to me in that mode. The way I handle emotion is by being quiet.

But Yati, my helper, has no friends here. I feel for her. She is like a young child really. I know she felt terribly alone and upset.

I think, that she feels that she has angered me and dissappointed me. All this while she worked hard, presumably to please me. And this Bitch spoils it all.

Instead I told her, beef up woman. Be strong. Don't allow her to win at her game. When she stare, you sing and be happy. Don't let her know that you sad or scared. No! Show otherwise, let's see how that'll drive her crazy.

I think Yati is now incredibly confuse.

I ask her, would you like to call Indonesia today. And she said yes, her eyes still sad.

I dialled for her, but no one was home. Oh! Her frustrated look. She almost cried in front of me. I said we'll try again later. Please, please don't cry in front of me. I wouldn't know what to do.

Tommorrow, Yati must lock the gates. Yes, she must.