Lollies the Sadist

Ohhh don't I love procrastination. Wait a minute! I have not been proscrastinating..I was just taking a slower pace trying to finish up the report because I have to be detail. Yes! So that mistakes are not made.

But this week, have been crazier than usual. I went home late nearly everyday. Sleeping hours are crazy. Waking up, typing, running after Jack2. Full awake discussing the next day. And I am working throughout the bloody weekend. (I am in the office now alone, pretending I am working).

Yesterday we had to finalise the presentation. All of us stayed back. And suddenly, suddenly..I felt that hey..I like this man. I like this adrenalin pumping rush. I like argument and blame storming in the meeting room. I like laughing at my colleagues and in return being laughed at.

I like thinking of words to fool impress the audience. Words like "system is relatively weak in P state" or "system is comparatively strong in S state", but in essence we are trying to say the same thing. This is all about being tactful.

I like listing all the numbers with units at the back. Units that some people, among the audience, who may not know but refrain asking because it would make them look stupid. Muahahaha.

I love using the G word gor Giga and giving costs in billions. I love quoting important government meetings. The JPPPET meeting conducted by the Ministry himself will always keep the audience quiet.

I love tabling out the confusing, all numbers and data of the simulation result. You can't convince them, confuse them.

And I think, honestly, deep down inside, most of the employees in the corporate world and even masochist while gulping her frappe actually enjoy this last minute rush. Going through the power points, doing the hyperlink thing, putting one or even two big words with big jargons..

Come on people, admit it, you like it don't you? You swear that you are stressed out. You swear that your eyeballs are coming out and that you have bags under your eyes. You snap to your colleagues. You get snapped yourself. You hate your boss.

But deep down, you really like it. You sadist you.

I love this adrenalin rush.

Because deep down I love pain. Yes baby whip me!