Sunday, April 16, 2006

Weekend Trip



I went to my in-laws' house last weekend. It is about one and a half hour drive, door to door. This is my father's first time being alone after my mother passed away. *Sigh*

I was driving in the rain crossing the Muar River when I looked at the rear view mirror and saw Batrisyia. Her eyes were watery. I asked, "Sya is crying? Why? Why are you crying?" I was seriously trying to recall whether I snapped at her earlier on.

Have you ever ask a woman (or a girl) why she is crying? You know what would happen? The sobs would get heavier and you still get no answers. But do not stop there. Ask her gently. Pull her closer to you. "Why are you crying Sya?" Patting her head. In the midst of her heavy sobs, she said atok (grandpa). And slowly but surely, you will get your answer. (sometimes it is more difficult for some)

She said she misses her atok. She never cry when we leave her atok. I don't think it's really miss that she is feeling. I think she can sense her atok's somber mood . He seemed to be holding back seeing us go. It must be very lonely, all alone in the house. For the first time in your life.

Emotion overwhelm me seeing Sya. I sobbed quietly.

Now I am often surrounded by noise of the kids. Noise so loud and so chaotic, it drives me crazy. I must have driven my parents crazy too at one time. Perhaps there were moments they wanted me to shut up. I am quite sure there were. But now the house is quiet and empty. Loneliness can also be deafening.

And I would be leaving for Qatar soon. I can't bear the thought.

18 comments:

Captain Barbell said...

i tried rendang tok at the chicken rice shop tu. memang sedap le

Lollies said...

eh lama tak makan kat situ. jom mamam. i nak pi kl esok

Nae said...

why not bring ur father to qatar with u for a few weeks. he could do with a change in scenery :)

anne said...

Kesiannya your dad....

Kalau you balik Qatar, he will live all alone? That must be tough.. both for you n dad

Lollies said...

nae - memang itulah perancangannya. but not too soon

anne - itulah yang saya tak tahan. eh anne dory ada call u tak?

Anonymous said...

Lollies

Would you be dropping by at BK esok? Any chance of meeting you and the kids?

I Do.

Lollies said...

I do - yeah I am going to KL esok. Sampai weekend kot. Definitely jumpa.

maklang said...

Kesian kat your dad. Hope there will be somebody in your family yang boleh temankan dia...

lollies said...

hmm tak dalah mak lang. sesekali datang melawat boleh kot.

anne said...

lolls,

dory ada call. So i guess we will meet soon.

atiza said...

awat tak call aku kalau balik kl? bila balik Qatarnya?

1 said...

u take care of urself and the kids mummy.

~ahni~ said...

please call ok, nak jumpa!

Man Bucit said...

c'est la vie, one can be lonely in a crowd ...

Idham said...

LoLLies...glad u write again...bcoz it gives me an opportunity to come in again...
wonderful gurl ur sya is...only a gurl with a heart filled with LOvE can feel for her grandpa...ah, such wonderful daughter u have in sya...ermm, now it is ok for u to read my blog...if u may...i have a story of my holiday in beirut with my darling LiL...

am not far from QataR myself...

IdHam. <---ur M E neighbour

lollies said...

alamak kekawan sesunguhnya aku sukar sikit nak rendesvous pi kl kali ni. bapak aku nak pergi rumah sedara. Aduuss masa sungguh suntuk. Sori sesangat

bucit - so precise and true

idham - so now can read eh? Where are you? Bahrain? dubai? iran?

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